Watching Someone You Love Die

The blog post includes a discussion around death and family. Please read with caution if these items trigger or upset you.

Recently, my family found out that my grandmother is really sick. The day before Easter we got a call that she had stage 4 brain, lung, and liver cancer. Hearing this has been heartbreaking and I haven’t been myself since. I’ve never expected something like this to happen so soon, especially since I’ve never experienced a family loss before.

I feel guilty that I’m sad and she hasn’t even passed yet. Some days I’m completely okay, and the others I’m a mess and it’s hard to get out of bed. I can’t sleep and my mind is always racing with sad thoughts. I don’t want to imagine my life without her, and it pains me to think she won’t be at my graduation or wedding.

Have you ever experienced a significant loss before? What was the process like for you? What advice do you have to share?