So as I’ve mentioned in previous posts, I struggle with binge eating, depression, and anxiety. Some days it can be SO mentally draining. A lot of my closer friends don’t share the same struggles that I do, or none at all. Thinking about this during some of my lows make me wonder, “why me?”
Of course everyone has their own issues that they struggle with, but some are more consistent or apparent than others. When looking at friends who, from the outside, appear to have it all together, (good body image, parents still together, boyfriends, healthy relationships with food) it makes me wonder why the universe gave me the issues I have.
I like to believe I’m a good person. I stand up for what is right and fight for those who need help fighting, but am still faced with struggles that are so heavy to carry most days. Some days it can be hard to get out of bed. I almost feel that if my issues and body image went away, so would all my issues. If I wasn’t overweight, then maybe I’d have a boyfriend or more friends, etc. We all know looks aren’t everything in a relationship, but sometimes I feel like I will never be able to overcome my struggles. Sometimes I feel like the “fat friend,” the basic movie stereotype. The excess weight is a constant reminder to me that I don’t think I’ll ever feel good enough in my own skin.
I want to over come these issues and rise above them, but some days are so much harder than others.
Are there struggles that you have that you find yourself having a harder time overcoming than others? Do you find yourself comparing what you think your flaws are to others?